When it comes to expressing how I feel verbally, I can. It isn’t that hard to do. But in certain situations, I can’t do it. I fumble through my words and say things that I don’t mean to say when I am in a tough situation. I saw this happen when I was discussing something with my boyfriend, Justin. We were having a serious discussion and I responded with something that I really didn’t mean to say. It was one of those situations where it just came out wrong but what I had said really hurt his feelings. I tried explaining what I really meant and it still wouldn’t come out right. Here is where I fumbled. It was like: Open mouth, insert foot.
After we hung out, I came home and went to my room. I got out a notebook and just started writing. I wrote about 2 pages worth of what I really meant. My hand was cramping and I was writing so feverishly but the words flowed when I was writing. I knew what i was trying to say and it was so easy to have my feelings out on paper. I gave this letter to him and it cleared everything up. It was more than just fixing something that I said. It meant so much to him that I had taken the time to really write out my feelings and my thought process.
I really made me think about how much writing impacts people. Hearing someone say something gets the point across but seeing it written, in my opinion, means so much more.
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